Monday, July 30, 2012

What Do You Dream About?

I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. 
I was so happy and I knew it was going to be a girl.
Many years ago, after the birth of our 3rd child, we were
told that it would be simply to risky for me to have another child.
So we took care of that, if you know what I mean.
Now and then my husband and I think of what life would have been like with a 4th child.
What would she have looked like?
What would we have named her?
Who would she resemble the most personality wise as 
compared to her siblings?
It's nice to dream and to think of things that may never come to pass.
This is why last night's dream has SO much meaning to me.
Remember when I mentioned that I was retiring from my accounting job?
I did it mainly because after my stroke or SAH I can 
no longer function the way I used to.
Sure I can walk and talk but there are some things that my brain can't process as quickly as it did before.
There are other residual effects that I won't go into further but the fact of the matter is that I am not the same.
I can't say it has changed me for the worse.
And I can't say it has changed me for the better either.
I'm kind of in limbo.
Or at least that's the way I feel most days.
I had a very big decision to make months ago regarding my work situation.
My career as a director in government accounting was very draining. 
I just couldn't handle it anymore.
Besides that I wanted to home school my little guy since he
had been having trouble with his reading at school.
We even had to hold him back in 2nd grade because we thought it would help him.
It didn't.
So for the last month or so I have been pondering what 
God has in store for me.
What is next I wonder?
The suspense is killing me.
Sometimes I get sad.
Sometimes I get angry.
And sometimes I am just confused.
Wouldn't it be nice if we had a crystal ball to see what is around the bend?
But I know in the end, my Father in Heaven is calling the shots and whatever is in store for me and my family will be just what we need.
So back to the dream.
In my culture, we believe that when one dreams of pregnancy it means "new beginnings, a rebirth of things to come."
Kinda neat huh?
I'm happy and excited to see what new beginnings are in store for me.


Sunday, July 29, 2012

Things That Make Me Smile and Winner of the $25 Kroger Gift Card

Things that make me smile

 {this same week I met a new friend-Buddy-and he made me smile}
Copyright-Patricia Martinez Photography

You know when you're feeling kinda down
and you just need to get out of the house to clear your head?
Well that was me about a week ago.
I felt confused, bored, angry, and just generally blah.
I had promised a friend of mine I'd take her out to lunch for her birthday.
We agreed on a Thursday.
So that day I woke up in a good mood ready for my lunch date.
You know when you have that friend that just the thought 
of hanging out with them just makes you smile?
Well she is THAT friend.
As soon as I pulled up to her front door I had a smile on my face.
And being that we hadn't talked or seen each other for a long time due to vacations and work and other life's in betweens, well we had a LOT of catching up to do.
So as soon as she gets in my car we start talking and laughing.
We agree on a very nice Tuscan restaurant and sit down and look at the menu. 
But we were talking so much we had to tell the waiter to just "give us a few more minutes" to make up our minds-twice!
You know what I'm talking about?
We had SO much to say to each other and her stories crack me up.
She is single now and I love hearing all about her dating 
stories and the places she goes.
So yeah, I'm kinda living the single life vicariously through her as well.
We ordered our food and we talked and ate and talked and ate.
Afterwards, I didn't want our lunch date to end.
But I figured, maybe she had things to do.
Well we're walking outside and the restaurant is in this very nice shopping center and she asks if I'll go with her to a shop to get a blouse she liked. 
I say "Of Course!"
So we talk and shop and talk and shop.
Theeennnn, she asked what I was doing later, and I said I didn't know and so we ended up going to check out this new scrapbooking place I wanted to go to (she doesn't scrapbook but she went with me 'cause she's sweet like that)
Then I say "Let's go get some Starbucks"
I love me a cold cream based frappuccino with chocolate chips and mint {neither one of us drink coffee and this drink is super refreshing}
So then we see a couple of her friends there and we start talking.
So now I've spent a good 4 hours with my friend and we're having a blast!
I meet her new friends but the place is kind of crowded so she and I head outside to drink our drinks. 
After a bit, her friends come out and invite us next door to this really hip wine bar.
I say "OK!"
And off we go.
Now neither one of us drinks wine but I have a coke and she gets water.
We're having the greatest time :)
She then orders some appetizers and I'm yakking it up with her friend and nobody wants to leave.
Have you had one of those days?
And just thinking about that day makes me smile.
I want to do it again.
 {copyright Patricia Martinez Photography}

Have a great week everyone. 
Find a reason to smile.

Now for the news you've been waiting for!
 Here is the winner of the Kroger giftcard and Produce for Kids

Entry # 34!!!
Gina M.   I will contact you to send you your prize


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