Wednesday, January 30, 2013

When It Rains It Pours

First of al l, let me say thank you to those o f you who have commented, sent me e -mails and pri v ate messages regarding my last post. I really appre ciate your kind words and advice. I am still dealing with "it" a s b est as I can withou t resorting to medication.  Howe ver, if it comes to that, my doctor and I will try different meds to see  wha t works best.  But wit h me a t a new ish job, I am leer y of starting any new meds, lest they impact my job performance.  Now and then I will update you all on my progress but I don't want my blog to be all about depression.  I want to continue being the creative person I have been, but it is still so hard. Thi s past week has been especially hard since my little guy suffers from nigh t terrors.  It is not fun. I have been praying for him to get over them soon so we can all get a go od n ights sleep. He went from s leeping in our bed, to s leeping on our floor, to sleeping on his own- in the study. H
Wednesday, January 23, 2013

About Depression

This is something I've been dealing with for about a year but was reluctant to ta lk about.  Ever s ince my SAH (you can read about it  here.)  t hings just haven 't been right.  My doctors warned me that my brain would like ly re main " damaged" from the trauma forever.  I refused to accept it and jumped right back into my life  as if nothing had happened.  Big. Mistake. It took months of f rustration, anger, sadness and finally acceptance, to figure out that the "old" me is gone and the "real" me is here .now. Unless you've dealt with a horrible dis ease or a tr aumatic event, it will be diff icult to u nder stand where I am coming from. I know . I used to feel that way too. Why could n't pe ople just bounce back?  I mean, I was sympath etic to other's suffering and plight, but I thought that would never h appen to me. Remember, I was a "perfectly healthy" 40 is h woman in the prime of her life. 


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