Saturday, March 23, 2013

Time for Changes

It's been an interesting couple of weeks. If you want to call it that. I have been feeling like I've been going downhill since the last post where I discussed my "issue". If you are a regular reader of this blog you will know what I am talking about.
I thought I could "make myself better." I thought that I could will it to go away. The clouds would disappear and the sun would shine once again. But the sun didn't come out and the cloud kept getting darker. Until the storms came in.
And the storm was bad. Very bad. 
I prayed and prayed all day and night. 
Until one day, it dawned on me. I needed help.
I needed professional help. 
If I was sick with an infection or the flu wouldn't I seek help?
I needed to know what was wrong. 
I set up an appointment that very day of the dawning. 
My doctor explained to me once again that after a brain    
hemorrhage this could happen. And it did.
He immediately advised me of the course of action one takes in cases such as mine.
And I took it. 
I took it anxiously and hesitantly all at the same time. 
I didn't want to admit that "something was wrong with me."
But it takes courage to admit such a thing.
And here I am about 10 days into it.
And I am feeling-Happy.
I still don't think I'm back to "my old self" but my family disagrees.
They tell me THIS IS my old self. 
I still believe I have a ways to go.
But I'm on the road to correcting an imbalance that I refused to recognize before.
    And it feels good.
And the other day, at lunch, I stepped outside and felt the sunshine on my skin
It felt very good.
 {photo taken by me}



p.s. My old self will be posting more soon. I promise.


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  1. This post is about hope. I love how honest you are with your words. It felt like I was reading poetry. I'm glad you are feeling the sun again.


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